Hello!Audrey here
This name was given to me on 18111995
Studying in St,Hilda's Secondary School currently
Here to spam and say nonsense, write your name BIG BIG and get lost!
My friends? Then do enjoy :]
Finally I can really post without fear of receiving judgement on what I am going to post.
Haiz, things have not been going quite well for me. Getting scolded no matter what i do, be it good or bad. Just wanna emo, like what they seem to be doing to get rid of their stress and unhappiness, but i know that i can't do it. Seems like my presence in with you all seems to have worsen. Like my mood swings, crying whenever i feel like, and having to endure them when i'm with you all. Feels really tired all of a sudden.
All my stress seems to be coming from not only my family, but my really cose friends too. Seems like i can only sit there, stay quiet to stay out of scoldings. Is it really my fault to not like vulgarities? Do i have to change my style of dressing just to suit with rest and go with the 'fashion'? Really very confuse . . .
Nothing just seems to be going right for me, and i wonder why. I may be repeating many things again and again but this is how i really feel. I know that my blog is empty and that nobody visits it but i still wanna put it on permission to stop people except for you to come T.T
Today's post is really long, longer then usual, cause i know that i can finally release whatever i really thinks from today onwards. . .
When can all of this stop? When i commit suicide(which is impossible for me to do it now even though i wish to) ? Or is it when i just ignore everyone and become the loner that i have always been? The one thats being hated in the class since the beginning of last year for a reason that i dunno why and don't wish to care anymore. . .
Haiz, just wanna say that you all will always be my best friend whether you all hate me a not, which is something i don't care anymore . . . .
